Reflecting on Changes

Almost every Sunday for the past three years I have brought Andrew coffee before church. The routine goes a little something like this; I wake up and get ready for church, drive to Tim Horton, order a large coffee with two cream for Andrew and a medium coffee with one cream for me, drive to Andrew's house, wake him up and then we leave for church with our coffees. For the past three years, if you asked me what my favourite thing to do with Andrew is, I would tell you about this routine we have on Sundays. It is my favourite part of the week. Andrew is usually too tired to say much, so he just listens while I talk about everything that is on my mind. It's a pretty good system. Today was the last Sunday before Andrew and I get married, and this routine is going to change. It will still happen, but it won't be quite the same. I will wake up, but it will be next to Andrew. I will get ready for church, but it will be at our apartment, not at my parents house. I will drive to Tim Hortons, but it will be a different route to get there. I will go to Andrew's house to wake him up, but it will be my house too. So many changes are going to happen soon and I am finding it all very bittersweet. I thought that I would take this time to reflect on some of the things I am going to miss as well as tell you about some of the new things I am excited for.

I will miss living with my family. I love waking up and getting to say good morning to everyone before we head out to work and school. I will miss eating breakfast with my brother and asking him about what he has planned for the day. I will miss sleeping in the room I have been sleeping in for the past 21 years. I will miss seeing my dog when I come home from work. I will miss saying goodnight to Andrew after he drops me off at my house. I know I will still get to see my family, see my dog, and say goodnight to Andrew,  but it will not be the same. These are just some of the things I will miss.

However there are a ton of things I am looking forward to. Here are just a few. I am excited to wake up next to Andrew and to say goodnight to him right before we go to bed. I'm excited to see him before I go to work and make coffee for him in the morning. I am excited to be traveling through life with someone who means so much to me. I am so excited for what the future has in store for us.

Today, just six days before we get married, I am thinking of the things I am going to miss, but I am also thinking about all the things I am going to gain. It is all totally worth it and I am so excited.